I have several ideas for projects that I think would be fun and interesting and potentially lead to something sellable or publishable … and I have absolutely no motivation to make them happen. I just daydream about them.
I don’t know if I need a life coach or a counselor, but I’m starting with counseling. Because I also think I have issues managing personal relationships. I’m far too dependent on other people (and possibly bourbon) to make my life fun and interesting and lovable. And I think both my upbringing and my former marriage have made it both difficult for me to communicate emotions and led me to expect derision when I finally do.
My behavior is making the people I care about most unhappy, and that’s not acceptable.
I found out from a colleague I get six free counseling sessions through my workplace. You can gain a lot of insight in six conversations with an impartial stranger.
So yeah, I’m gonna get a little help finding my sense of direction and purpose.